Thursday, October 27, 2011

The One With Homeschool Confessions

I haven't blogged in ages. I don't feel like there is much to yap about these days. My days in and out are the same mundane thing. Schooling, after school chores or programs, Friday School, church, church activities and so on. Not a whole lot changes from week to week.

But I came here today to talk about homeschooling. I am not enjoying it these days. If I had to be completely honest with myself I don't think I've ever fully enjoyed it, as a teacher. I do it because I feel I should. I feel it's the best thing for our family. I don't enjoy it tho. I get kind of jealous when I hear other homeschool moms talking about it like it's fun and full of great adventures. Frankly, I haven't found that yet.

I don't enjoy teaching them how to read. It's frustrating to me when we've gone over the same thing 50,000 times and they *still* don't get it. I hate giving tests... one child rebels at the mere mention of the word 'test'. He forgets everything we learned that week and does it however he thinks is right. One child is distracted by anything and everything & I'm constantly have to get on her to PAY ATTENTION!!! Another child does the minimal work he can squeak by with. He could do more, he could do better, but frankly, after dealing w/ the arguments from one child and the PAY ATTENTION with another plus trying to teach another to read, write and learn 'rithmetic, I don't have the energy or desire to push him as much as he should be pushed.

And then on top of that, I have a preschooler who gets into EVERYTHING... or distracts us. Which is it? Let her color on walls or have to raise my voice to be heard over her?

Not every day is like this.... but there are more negative days than positive days to homeschooling these days. When am I going to start enjoying it? :/