Thursday, November 17, 2011

The Deep One About Agreements

How many agreements with Satan do you have? I've been mulling this over for a few days. Matt & I are reading a book by the Eldreges. In this book they were talking about agreements we have made w/ Satan.

God created us perfect... in His image. Our bodies, our souls, our minds, our hearts are His when we give our lives to Him. We are His children & loved deeply by Him. Unfortunately, we live in a fallen world and have been wounded deeply numerous times. Through our pain and our wounds, we put up walls to protect ourselves. We say we're not good enough, we're not pretty enough, we aren't smart enough. We're not good parents. Our lives are horrible. We're undesirable and unlovable. No one could possibly want us fully in our brokenness.

Guess where those lies come from? Yep... Satan. And if we allow ourselves to be enveloped by these lies, if we continue to live in these lies, we're agreeing with Satan. Yes, I'm undesirable, so I'm going to put up this wall of defense and not let anyone prove that to me again. Yes, I'm unlovable, so I'll just admit it and live with that. Yes, I'm not good enough, but it's all I've got, so I'm stuck w/ who I am. These are all agreements...

I, personally, have so many agreements with Satan right now. They all stem from past experiences in my life. They seem like legitimate things... I could tell you the negative things I feel about myself and then give you a reason to back up why I feel that way. I'm the queen of building up walls to protect myself. Unfortunately, it means I miss opportunities to have deeper friendships, deeper relationships w/ those I love. It means I miss opportunities in life because I think "Oh, I'm not smart enough to do that" and don't go after it.

The Lord didn't create me to be this way... He wants me to break the agreements I have w/ Satan and move forward in my life, friendships & relationships. He wants me to blossom into the person He created me to be. It's so hard to step outside of the things I'm familiar with because they are comfortable, even if they hurt.


zekesmom10 said...

Now I know why I had the urge to spill my guts to you the other day. And it was OK that I didn't, because you wrote it all here. Thanks! <3

Heather T. said...

Jodi was right, that image I put together today does fit this post, big time! Both are feelings that I've had through the growing seasons in my life, too, Becca.

I can't tell you many of the why's for how I am and even though I know who I am in Christ, how God looks at me....I still fight myself every single day. The enemy feeds our weaknesses. God is stronger and when we hold tight to Him, He enables us His strength.

It amazes me at how much we have within us, the beauty and the strength - all of these abilities and still, we find ourselves listening to that darned snake all over again. Grrr.

Keep posting your thoughts, girl....many other women find courage through what we share. God is leading you ;)